Today

Didn't meet my calorie goal today.  Was a bit under it and wasn't really all that hungry.  I sweat a LOT during work today and a hell of a lot more on the treadmill.  I was completely covered in sweat.  Even my palms were drenched.  Tired as hell.  Going to bed. 

Date night tomorrow.  Her name is Martha.  Second date... Not sure if its getting friend zoned or not.  We will see.  Plus Harry Potter is cool too.

Wants and Needs

I've been thinking lately about why I get self-destructive. I've realized that this happens because I deny myself what I really want.

Some other themes today are how life is short and you should tell people how you feel about them.

At this point I need to figure out what is motivating me right now. I think it's fear.

Red Flag

I knew I was in trouble when I surprised her with our finished wedding video... and she cried because she was sad.